Yo minna!!!
This entry is 2 convey my feelings on/for Yamapi..
If ya know me, you'd prob say that I like him but wuld normally hear me complaining bout him & saying "I hate him"!!!! Truthfully, IDK wat my actual feelings 4 him r either...!?!?! Wierd huh?? In the 1st place, ya'd prob think I'm over-fanned on Yamapi cauz I use words like love & hate, which r RILI STRONG words that convey ACTUAL, SERIOUS emotions but if ya know "know" me, ya'd know I'm not exageratin... I'm not a typical fan but I'm not crazy either... so, rest assured.... XDXD
Truthfully, again, I don actually "hate" him & to tell ya e truth, I hv no idea why I dislike him either... It's juz dat weneva I think of him or see his pic, I feel angri... Wierd rite??? I'd get upset wen I hear rumors like him with a girl... Eg. Him & Gakki [whom I dislike] in a hot tub
But wen I RILI luk at him, closely, in2 his eyez, der's dis inevitable, gut feeling that he's lonely... Sometime's I feel so stupid 2 think so but it's like I'm so sure of it, like I believe it even though I know I'm juz assuming!!! I'm wayy contradictive of myself, don ya tink??? Dis is normal, actually... One of my "charming" "unique" characters of confusing MYSELF!!!
On his J-web "Yamashita no Nikki" , his recent entry..... As a personal Pi note, he wrote,
"Cauz ya live, I live.... Cauz ya live, I hv twice as many stars in my sky"
I mean, though it's wayy cheesy.... I like it, bein a romancist & all.... I'd TOTALLY BLUSH if Yamapi said dat 2 me, no doubt [cauz it''s wayy sweet]
But e ting is, in my opinion [& Taru] , somtin as heartfelt, sweet & romantic as dat shouldn be said so easily/lightly to A GAZILLION fans.... It should be saved 4 dat 1 special person ya rili like or LOVE.... I get he wans 2 express himself 2 his fans, but he shuld try usin less "deep" words....
I know I'm wayy complez, confusin, 2 in-depth-tinkin-2-much & mayb annoyin, but it's juz how I feel!!! Actual truth, I love how I'm like this, even though somtimez frustratin [4 me 2] but hey.... dat's why I'm interesting rite??? [HAHA][Don hv 2 agree cauz at least I know som ppl think so] XDXD
That's all for now!!! [for now, be minded, HAHA]
Out & Mostly Confused
Natasha a.k.a. Kuromaou a.k.a. Nana
